I am so very, very pleased with that third panel. Pretty much exactly the way that I wanted it to turn out, if not actually a little better.

I’m spending this week over at my parents’ house because on Wednesday my mom is having the first of two eye surgeries. Today we were talking about artwork, and the fact that she has never been allowed to just be creative and make mistakes. My mom is very much the person that I get my creativity from, but she doesn’t usually just whip out some paper and do a drawing from her head.

I see so many artists of all ages who are down on the skills that they don’t have, and jealous of those who draw “better” than them. But the fact of the matter is that you have to get those bad drawings, the ones that fall short of your expectations, out of your system before you can get to the good stuff. My mother has never been encouraged to just slap paint around and make mistakes, and so even though she’s creative she hasn’t developed her own style. Where as she always encouraged us kids to draw, to paint, to craft, to throw paint on things and make paper snowflakes and draw on all the paper we could get our hands on. I’ve probably done tens of thousands of art projects and drawings in my (almost) thirty years of life, and I am just now getting to the point where I’m beginning to actually feel that my art is starting to match up with the vision of it that I have in my head.

I’ve been writing this and trying to come up with a question to ask you all to start a discussion but I’m having a hard time. It’s just something that’s been on my mind today. I guess I’m wondering what could have been, if my mother had been as encouraged when she was a child as I was by her to be creative? If she had been that much better and had a few hundred thousand terrible drawings and learning “mistakes” under her belt by the time that I was old enough to hold a pencil, I wonder if my early work would have been better, or progressed faster. No idea, but like I said, it’s been rattling around in my head and I thought I would talk about it.